Dating a Narcissist

I’ve been seeing this Guy for a while now, everything was great at the beginning but now I’m starting to realize he’s a narcissist. He would treat me so good and make me feel on top of the world at the beginning and everything was amazing but now I’d be ignored for days and then he would talk to me again as if nothing happened and then would do this again and again... and it’s my fault for showing him I’ll always be there whenever he wants me to, no matter how long he ignores me for he knows I’ll be there and that’s what needs to stop. But the worst thing out of all of this is he would tell me he loves me and that he wants me pregnant and at first I thought it was odd how he randomly wanted me pregnant so I would tell him it’s not the right time.. but as time went on he made me feel comfortable with having a baby and I was finally ready so every month he would try to get me pregnant and it finally happened and I found out I was pregnant on New Years and when I told him the first thing he told me was that I need to get an Abortion.

I was in shock. This guy I thought I knew made me feel comfortable in getting pregnant and we tried for months and now that I am it’s get an abortion ? That really fucks with a persons mind. It’s really traumatizing the things he put me through and now I’m just so lost because the person I thought I knew is a completely different man. He’s such a narcissist and only thinks of himself. Who does that to a person. And the fact that he says he still wants to be with me and have children later on in the future .. but I’m just so messed up from all of this. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have been ignoring him for good but it just hurts losing someone you love.