This is emotionally the hardest thing ive been through. Ive lost the most amazing, beautiful, gorgeous person ive ever met.

All because of my mental health.

My life is tough, an emotionally abusive mother, everyday just brought down. Ive been bullied. Called ugly. So ive grown up to have a very negative outlook on myself and the world. I understand, but im trying. Im seeing a psychologist. Im working on myself. He wont wait for me.

He told me i was not good for him. He told me that he wants some one positive, good vibes, good energy, someone really beautiful and does well in school. He said im not so much those things.

Despite the promise ring.

The promises he made to never give up on us.

The fact that he said he will never stop loving me.

Look where we are...

I wasnt sure if i should name this, how to get over him or how to get him back. Because truely i want him back. But im worried he completely done this time (this has happened before and hes come back). So if i could ask for both, i will so appreciate it.