stay or leave🤔

okay hear me out. This might be lengthy.

I married my husband in 2017. we have two kids and one on the way. I am due for a csection in less than two weeks.

everyone knows at the end of the pregnancy it’s dreadful and exhausting. I’m constantly nauseous and sick. also, on bed rest. so it’s harder to care for a 3 year old and a 1 year old.

But this is where it gets twisted.

we have been dating for 9 years. then got married. Everything was PERFECT. hinting why we tried for baby #3. 🤷🏼‍♀️

he works & im a stay at home mom. he works 7am-5pm. Comes home, and goes STRAIGHT to bed. That’s it!? Every single day. I take care of the kids all day long. it’s what I wanted to do. But it should also feel like teamwork as parents when he comes home so I can get a break. Especially being almost 9 months pregnant.

The past 3 nights, I’ve been up with sickness and contractions. Our youngest has a slight cold so he wakes up screaming. I haven’t slept in days which feels like years. 😭

I’ve mentioned to him about my feelings and what not. But once again, he’s sleeping. 🙄 he’s “tired”. But so am I....😔

I’ve mentioned leaving him and it doesn’t phase him one bit. He doesn’t step up to do his daddy duties and it bothers me.

Am I wrong for wanting to leave? & thinking if he isn’t helping out now, what makes me think he’ll help with a new baby? Especially for when I need help after having a cesarean.... 😔

(I’ve been talking about marriage counseling. Literally willing to try anything and everything to help save our family. But there’s always excuses on his end)