Sorry it’s a little lengthy, but please read and help me !

I have 4 kids and 2 with my ex. Our second child was born a couple weeks ago. The whole pregnancy he was not there for me. He didn’t call to make sure I was ok. He stressed me. He slept with multiple other women while I was pregnant also. He hurt me a lot during the 4 years together. When I found out I was pregnant we were together but it was rocky because I caught him cheating on me ans meeting women in hotels. I was devastated and so heart broken but didn’t know how to end my family for my pain. I stayed but was suspicious of things and he still treated me as though he had no remorse for what he has done to me or now it would affect our family. After a while I even opted to buy is a home but later again found out he was cheating ☹️

I got pregnant during one of our make up sex which at the time we wasn’t haven’t much. After that he was acting like an ass and we broke up and that was the start of him not even caring about me during the pregnancy but he was texting once on a blue because we had another child. It was a long year trying to get over all his cheating and be pregnant and still know he was sleeping around. Anyway fast forward I end up giving birth 2 months early ans he was begging to come to hospital. Asking to have a big heart. Be the bigger person he sorry he wasn’t there for me. He wants to make it right etc etc. ( I’m always the bigger ans loving person forgiving !) Anyway I gave in when he said we have to do it for the kids. He wants to be the same for me. Be the good person too. It was music to my ears. .... so he came to see me and baby.

After I was out the hospital he didn’t want to take our 3 year old so I could heal from the csection and visit the baby on NICU. He preferred to go to parties and claim he was working there. Our son was sick when he had him once and he didn’t know how to care for him so I took our son to make it easy on him. The following week same story he was too busy. But I really needed to be in NICU to care for the other baby.

Finally one party he claim he was working at ( he runs a party hall building but he doesn’t have to alway be there ) I really liked and would attend all the time all years we were together. I mentioned to him well maybe I can get air and I said maybe we can fo together and I’ll get a sitter for the kids. He immediately said “I’m not going with you and if you show up you will be ignored”

I couldn’t believe it. I felt like scum , we just had a baby - you told me you want to be good to each other. You said you want to make it right. I was thinking in my head why?? We have history why are you treating me like I just make babies and we can’t be seen together we have a family?? I let you to the hospital even though you neglected me the whole pregnancy !! I didn’t treat you like nobody or threaten to ignore you !! 💔💔 ( I said this on my head ) I cried and felt stupid that he played me again like he did all the years and I remember why we didn’t last .... even if I thought our growing family would make him stop sleeping with Hookers, partying, smoking and drinking.

I cried on the phone and asked him why he treating me like that. He said “we’re not together I don’t need to pretend”..... what?? This is not about what people think were pretending. I’m your children’s mother. You told me you want to do better. I didn’t care about pretending at the hospital even though you been ghost for almost a year ! I gave you respect !

Our son is asked for you all

Weekend and you was too busy for him and now you want to hide me from being seen with you after we just had our second child ?? I hung up crying. He never called back or texted me and offered me to come. He played me to get what he wanted after treating me like trash for 7 months- like I don’t exist! Even for this party he still

Wanted it to be like I don’t exist!! Ans I could feel this deep in me ...😢

He played me like he did for years and I almost want to go crazy. Scream cry ! Break things. I feel so stupid! He has yet to even text me or call me today about the baby in hospital or our son or about how upset I was ....

I want him to hurt like me !! I just want this cycle to stop!! I want to stop being hurt by this man because I so forgiving and caring. I want to cut him off or make him feel like he doesn’t exist just like me !!!! 😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔I’m human how can a man so

This to his kids mother???? 💔 please help me cope.