So I have a boyfriend of almost 8 years. But he is tearing me apart. So abt 5 months ago maybe 5 n a half months ago my boyfriend n I had a small get together n got drunk. I was ridiculously black out drunk. I don't remember anything from like 2 am til 7 am....I was awake tho apparently. Well my boyfriend told my brother (not me) that he was going to walk to the store to get munchies. He was gone about 45 minutes before my brother told me. (It takes abt a half hour walk there n half hour back) so I was expecting him back soon. Well he was not. This was before the blackout. I tried to call him txt him everything...couldn't get nothing back.

So onto the worst part...So I continued hosting the lil get together until I blacked out. I remember ppl leaving the house but apparently not everyone did. Cuz there was a guy who took advantage of my drunkness n raped me. I've reported it to the police n the investigation is in process. What bothers me the most is I didn't know it happened until 2 weeks later.

Well when I came back to being alive n not blacked out it was 7 am and my boyfriend still wasn't home. I tried calling him n texting him again n no answer. The "next morning" or day I should say. He shows up while I'm sleeping. So his excuse was that he was pokemon hunting in the park n Thts what took so long. Mind u he left before I blacked out. So did I get attacked in my own home cuz my boyfriend went pokemon hunting or does something sound fishy? He never did come back with groceries.

Well what bothers me most is now I'm pregnant...me n my boyfriend had been trying for 2 months before conception but the dates r too close for comfort. And I'm nervous I'm carrying my attackers child. My boyfriend already told me if the baby wasn't his I would have to move out. We have a almost 7 year old daughter together now. I just don't understand how he can basically blame me for being attacked. N then punishing me by making me move out of our home. Unless he feels guilty about something. Idk every time I think of this I have bad anxiety and my depression kicks my ass so hard that all I do is cry. All I know is that my boyfriend shows zero interest in this pregnancy n it makes me cry even harder. I just need some advice.