My boyfriend NEVER wants sex!! I have to give him two hour long explanations as to why having sex is a good idea!! I go weeks without anything, sometimes months!!

I’m the one with the super high sex drive, and he finally gave in after a month of no sex, but you can tell it’s just pitty sex because he’s not even all that hard... but you HAVE to show your appreciation for what you did get or who knows how long he’ll make you wait if you appear to be ungrateful.... even tho you dried up because you can tell he’s not into it, you still have to fake an orgasm!!

What is wrong with me?? Why doesn’t he ever want sex with me?? And why when he finally does it’s half assed?? I know I’m not the most gorgeous girl in the world, but don’t I deserve love too?? All I want is for him to be as into me as I am into him! 10 years is a long time to just wake up one day and decide you’re not sexually attracted to your person... right??