Need some advice

I’ve been in a relationship with this guy for 2 years and we’ve known each other for 3 he’s the most amazing person I’ve ever met and every day I seem to love him a little more despite everything but last year I had no idea I was pregnant and went on vacation with my family while abroad I realized I hadn’t gotten my period and decided to take a pregnancy test when I told my partner about it his reaction was definitely not what I expected he was so sad he even wanted me to have an abortion but he also let me know it was my choice this stressed me out so much I cried every day while I was across there not because I didn’t want it but because I really did😪 when I reached back home about a week after I had an miscarriage I was so devastated and my partner didn’t seem to care, it still bothers me.. I feel so empty when I think about what could’ve been and I want to try to have another because I just feel like it’s my fault and I’m broken but he doesn’t want that, he doesn’t understand..