I never wanted to feel so jealous of another woman pregnant. I want to be happy for them and share their joy. But a couple days ago we ran into an acquaintance and she was very beautifully pregnant. I had to hold back the strong tears that tried to break through at that moment and have been struggling ever since. It’s not her fault and really has nothing to do with her. I feel so terrible and so selfish for not feeling immediate joy for her. I’m just over here dying on the inside to be pregnant.