Just wanted someone to share this with & get advice.

I’ve been dealing with anxiety for so long, I tried getting help but they diagnosed me wrong now that I’m older I’m aware of all of that. My anxiety comes from my thoughts, my thoughts cause me fear & anxiety. I was freed from it couple of years ago, I was really involved at church & I actually felt like I had that personal relationship with Jesus. I stopped going to church, doing all those things & I got a panic attack & my thoughts started to get the best of me & I failed again. Now that I’m pregnant at the beginning it was super stressful for a straight month, things after things so it made me have anxiety due to chronic stress. I’ve been feeling really desperate, depressed & anxious lately, more sad than anything. I even bought books of CBT treatment, today I was watching a tv show called “Jesus” & there was a passage where the devil was telling a girl how unworthy she was, how she was alone & so many cruel things in her ear, the scary thing was that she thought she was thinking all those things so she started to cut herself, & it showed that she had cut marks already so I guess it was something she has been doing. That got to me so much because it made me realize that a lot of the things & fears in my head aren’t from me, much less from God. I need to fight back, I just don’t know exactly how. When I started thinking to myself that I need to fight back & learn how to I got a panic attack oddly... all these verses came to my mind, how Jesus said “I am the way and the truth and the life” back then CBT treatment didn’t exist, it was all done through him. I just don’t know how to start, what to read, how to apply it to my life & actually live by it... I get scared to even go to church & I’m not sure why..