First off I want to say I have a beautiful daughter, Ashley who is 20 and a handsome son, Jacob, almost 14, whom I love more than anything in this universe!! I was 19 when I had my daughter, young yes, but I knew what I wanted in my life and I went after every dream I dreamed. I always wanted more children, but my ex-husband didn't, when I remarried at 33, my husband and I were so very excited to bring a baby into our family, well 7 years later 5 miscarriages and 3 rounds of <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> later, I'm empty, broken, angry.

I can't leave my house anymore without becoming anxious about seeing babies or pregnant women and it makes me hate myself. When and how did I become such a angry person?

My dr is now suggesting surrogacy, (Haha I'm NOT Kim Kardashian) it's $100,000 or so, pocket change for some I guess. I'm just.... I don't know anymore..

I just want a baby...... is that too much to ask for?!?