Need some encouragement!! Do I look HORRIBLE!?

Meka

Ok so I literally gained 30 lbs in 2018 🤦🏽‍♀️ I’m looking to lose 40lbs this year but I truly feel like it’s almost impossible 🙄🤦🏽‍♀️😩 I’m only 5’3 and 27 years old but I swear I feel like I look wayyyy older due to this weight ! Any tips?

My fiancé will be away for 6 months and I really wanna lose the weight by the time he gets back (August)