Breastfeeding Breakdown

My daughter is only 11 days old and I've already had numerous emotional breakdowns about trying to breastfeed her. I messed up my nipples horribly with a shallow latch the first two days after birth and it has gotten better and worse again. I was taking ibuprofen around the clock the first week just to keep going. I saw a lactation consultant who checked the latch on two different occasions and my daughter is gaining weight at a good rate but whyyy do I want to cry every two hours when I know it's time to relatch her? Is it just hormones? Do I just hate the feeling of my nipples being messed with? I feel at wits end with it at least 2-3x a day. 😣