I’ve been in a relationship for 2 years now. I’ve come to accept and understand how toxic this relationship is but I don’t know how to get out, I do have love for him. But this love for him, has made me lose love for myself..

I’m overweight. I’ve been overweight since I had my son 2 years ago. I have a hard time going to the gym and sticking with it as I have troubles with anxiety and depression so I lack consistency. Everyday he tells me things like “if you don’t start going to the gym everyday I can’t do this, I love you but because I love you I’m telling you you just don’t look good”. Yesterday, I had some sweats on, he took one look at me and said “I could see your whole stomach in your sweats, you look like you’re 40”. Last night, his family asked if I was pregnant because I’m looking different. I’m unsure if I am. But my literal response was “y’all, I’m fat so idk if I am but if I look it it’s prob just my fat”. This morning right before trying to have sex he says “Babe I’m going to tell you because I feel comfortable with you to talk about anything. Last night everyone was asking you if you’re pregnant, you’re not pregnant so you need to put the rest together and do something about it”. I started crying to which he proceeds to tell me “idk what you’re crying about, it’s the truth. You don’t hit the gym. You don’t do shit to change your body. Cut out the crying because you’re blowing my shit, you’re fucking up my nut rn with your crying” I got up, and walked out. I told him he made me uncomfortable in my own skin. And I also told him he didn’t deserve shit from me, how am I supposed to give him my body after he made me feel so uncomfortable in my own body. - How can he tell me he loves me but make me feel like trash? A part of me wants to go to the gym and make my body better so I can say “fuck you” and leave him. And the other part of me feels he shouldn’t have the influence to make me feel like I have to go to the gym. I’m truly heartbroken.

Am I asking for too much? Am I wrong in how I feel?

I’m posting anon because idk if he knows anyone on here who would tell him what I’m saying.