Ive wanted to start trying for a family for over a year now and in January my husband agreed to start trying and tonight i told him that i ovulate in two days or so and he got irritated so i asked him to talk to me about it and he told me really doesnt want to try and he just wants me to stop asking him about it because hes tired of hearing me upset about it. I got pregnant last year and i had a miscarriage in march and it devastated me and it still does. I cry about it any time i think about it. Im absolutely shattered at the moment because i was SO excited to start trying and now...we arent going to...and it hurts that he lied to me...and he has me feeling like an asshole because hes crying over it because he just wants to make me happy and claims i wont love him if he doesnt get me pregnant and thats not true..I just feel so hurt that he let me get my hopes up and then crushed them and is now upset at me for fucking crying over it because im hurt....

I just needed it off my chest...im sorry