Long but please read.... Warning: Mentioning of sexual abuse when younger.

I’ve been hiding something for quite awhile & not sure if I should continue to keep it as a secret or not.

When I was younger, maybe about 7 or 8 years old I believe, my uncle touched me inappropriately once. I’m now 27. Even though it was only one time, he continued to swat at my butt when I’d be going by or whatever. Once I got to a certain age, I got uncomfortable with it & would move away. He would always give me money, etc. & I kinda feel that was a way to get by with what he did.

Fast forward to now, we haven’t talked to this uncle since July 2017 due to the way he did things when it came to my grandma(his mom) getting pretty sick at one time. We live in the same town as him & see him around here & there. Me, my mom, & my aunt are still pretty angry with him. He sent my grandma a Christmas card with $20 when he hasn’t seen or talked to her in a year & a half. As if that’s supposed to make it all better again or replace his absence. However, I believe my other uncle, cousin, & some other family still kinda associate with him sometimes.

Lately, I’ve been tired of keeping my secret because everybody just continues to talk to him even though he did my grandma wrong. I’m also tired of keeping it to myself. But my mom would literally go to jail if I told her about it. She’d go straight to his house so I’m stuck on what to do....

I remember my cousin(same age) walking in on him so I asked him if he remembered anything from then. He said he didn’t remember much. But he also said he wasn’t telling me not to tell but just realize what trouble she’d get in. 😔 That kinda upset me. I figured he would’ve been a little more supportive then that.

I’m not exactly sure what feedback I’m looking for. I’m just needing some advice on how others think of this.

*Posted before but adding this part*

The 2 people I did tell about it are now friends with him on his new Facebook. How can they know he did that to me & still be ok with it?! I feel like I’m being made out to being a bad guy here when he’s the one that sexually abused ME!!! 😡😡😡