A little background of myself ..

I was adopted @2 weeks by my Dads sister.

I have 1 sister(Biological cousin) . I live w/ my fiancé & his parents for now. My sister (biological cousin) Is a year older & we were very close!

I felt as if it was a toxic relationship w/ my mom & I , so during my pregnancy I had moved out. Afterwards, I had my baby it became a whole lot different.. my adoptive mother & I are not in speaking terms bc she feels as if I need to call or visit her first. To much pride is what she has. I specifically told my family that I won’t take the baby out till she gets her 2 months shots! NOT 1 family member came by & visited.. I was hurt by it bc I feel like they (my mother mainly) ignores my first/only daughters existence..! Now my sister ignores her existence as well..My adoptive mom & I had huge alteration before my baby shower , I couldn’t even invite my birth mother or other side of the family bc she wouldn’t have gone. She would legit make me cry while I was at work, the way she would text me or talk to me was just to much for me and I obviously was so sensitive! But she feels as if it’s okay and I should be used of her talking like that. I disagree w/ how she raised me but I mean I didn’t turn out so bad.. I love her and I’m very thankful for her giving me a roof over my head & food to eat. Blessed for that.

I was 5 when I last seen my birth mother and siblings. I always wanted to grow a bond w/ my little siblings and mother but never got the chance to bc I felt like my adoptive just stopped me from it . We even had a bad argument (15yrs old) bc she found out I had got in-touch w/ her on Facebook & called my birth mother “MOM” “She was hurt by it” is what she says, which I understand..I guess. Well, my fiancé knew about my personal life and history w/ my birth mother and why she gave me up for adoption but he knew deep down that I wanted a connection w/ her and my little siblings . He knew that my birth mom would always try to reach out to me when I was younger but I always pushed her away and never heard her out. So therefore he personally messaged her & asked if she could come visit our 4 month old & myself.💕 which she quickly agreed too!! The next day she came down to visit! Forgot to mention my adoptive mother & sister live 5/10 minutes away from me & my birth mother lives 45 minutes away!

Anyways.. I chose my sister to be the godmother to my LO but she has been stopped by adoptive mother . She had seen my LO once & was told to not stay too long. she’s always been the one to listen to my adoptive mom and was so close to her than I was. & when my bio mom & I finally reconciled, she had post a picture of her granddaughter on social media & somehow my sister(bio cousin) had seen. She then sent a screenshot to me and texted “LMAO” . I asked “why, lmao” i don’t get it ..I had told her to be the godmother & she was happy .but that was 1 time out of 4 months that she visited . ever since she seen that I was back in touch w/ my birth mom she ignores me. & I know for a fact my sister told my adoptive mother and Ik damn well they’re pissed.

The question is what would you do if you were in this position. My fiancé’s family is planning my LO’s baptism real soon & I need to figure out who I think would be the best fit for a godmother to our child... I’m at the point where I just want my fiancé to choose one of his family members bc F mine. Is how I’m feeling.