I just really need somewhere to vent and some advice.. my boyfriend and I have been together since December 2017. Last summer he did a ministry summer job where we were long distance for three months (didn’t see each other at all & he had one off day per week he could talk). It was extremely difficult for me as I spent most of my days feeling like my summer was boring and not impactful compared to his. He was busy all the time and I didn’t feel like he ever had time for me. There was one incident where I found out he was having inappropriate conversations with a girl from home too (inappropriate as borderline cheating, he was making plans to see her, telling her she was beautiful, etc and this wasn’t a friend, just someone he met online). After he got back he told me he didn’t want to do the job again because of how time consuming and difficult it was and our relationship was perfect. About a month ago he told me he’d been thinking and he’s applied again and plans to do the same job this summer. Now since he’s told me that we’ve done nothing but fight (mostly my fault). I just don’t want to go through it again.. I’m making myself miserable and I’m sure it’s making him miserable too. I can’t stop feeling jealousy and hurt and feeling like he’s leaving me behind and choosing three months without me & putting me through that again. I just need advice.. I don’t want to end things because I really do love him and see a future. It’s just these long distance summers. I can’t keep the arguing up. How do I not blame him for the hurt of being left? I’ve suggested this summer when he leaves that we remove each other on social media so that I don’t compare his summer to mine, and we limit our conversation to just calls or letters.