My ex broke with me because I wasnt able to see him when he liked due to my car being in shop and him not having a car. So he broke up with me through text telling me "he couldn't take it anymore" (it had been about a week or two), I hated to see him hurting so to ease his pain I let him go, but in reality he wanted me to chase him. But I felt I had already done so much for the relationship to survive (like take 30 min bike ride to and from his house jus to see him in any weather condition, early in the morning while he'd be in his bed sleep) that if what I was doing wasn't enough then there was nothing else I could do. He claims tht he loves me but compared to all the exs that cheated on him i didn't deserve to me left because I couldn't see him. I am a college freshman working 2 jobs in 2 different locations, who at the time didn't have a car. Yes, the relationship was controlling and toxic, but I loved him. I'd sacrificed the relationship between my family. He'd always yell at me and hit things, throw things. I was terrified to be around him, but didn't want to be away from him. Now that the relationship is over, I still miss him and now I feel like I have no one to talk to. I stay up all night thinking about how I want to be treated in my next relationship and deep down inside I'm really sad and no one can tell and idk who to go to so.... I'm coming to you guys 😥😓 I need advice on how to get through this.