Today I would have been 19 weeks pregnant.

Today I feel numb.

Today I still can't say out loud that I had a miscarriage.

I still try to find closure around every corner even though it won't be there.

Today I still remember seeing that postitve pregnancy test.

Some days I sit and wonder if it was all but a dream.

And then I remember the pain of those words.

Those words I still can't get my mouth to form.

Most days I convince myself I am okay.

But today I am numb.