Pls help

Danika

So my parents have split custody with me and since I’m older it’s getting harder I love both my parents but I feel it’s time to choose I want to move with my dad to another town that’s an hour away to my grandparents on the farm I love it and I really want to move but I don’t won’t to hurt my mums feelings. Every other time I tried to move in with just dad mum guilted me into not and I don’t want to cave in again like it’s easier said than done pls help