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I legit have a question and need some advice. This is the first time I've ever been able to be a sahm. I love it. So greatful for the opportunity. Im still learning how to juggle housework and a needy baby, but im learning My SO is an alcoholic, and sometimes when he drinks he throws in my face that I don't have a job. Because he doesnt consider being a sahm a job at all. We cant afford daycare even if i go back to work and all my family works so they cant watch the baby. We agreed i wouldn't work. He told me he cant wait till i go back to work so he can sit at home and do nothing. Does anybody elses SO not value them like they should? I love him and dont want to leave him but idk what to do.