I feel alone in this..

We’re both in the process of changing jobs. He’s been at his current job since after HS and promoted only twice. He’s fixing to be 28 & I am 22. He’s in no hurry for marriage or babies. Me? I could have a baby TODAY and not regret it or feel bad about it. We also live together. I work buying/selling in Real Estate. He bought a home from me last year. We lived together 1 year prior to our current home in a rental. We’re planning to get married May of 2020. (Engaged 12/08/18) I want everything in life much sooner. It’s hard for me to understand why he doesn’t and why I do. We stopped having sex March ‘17. We did that bc we wanted to work towards a Christ approving marriage. It recently came out that he was actually afraid of having a child too soon (his biggest motivation to stop). I had a timeline in my mind for engagement that I never realized until the “deadline” passed. I was expecting an engagement within a year of no sex. I thought we were agreed on that but I actually don’t think it was discussed in that much detail. I’m wanting to get married like, tomorrow! Because I want sex so bad at this point. Not desperately but like.. we do everything except penetration. 🙄 so I’m like... I feel it’s pointless now to be waiting.

I need advice to stop thinking that I want these things so soon. I want to be content with today. With the fact we have 1.3 years before we get married. I want to be happy that we don’t have or want babies right now. I’ve struggled with these feelings for like a year now. I wanted a September wedding but, that won’t happen bc the venue doesn’t do July-November bc it’s primarily hunting grounds. Any kind words/gentle constructive criticism is appreciated.