Does anyone on here have BPD too and could maybe help me out? Recently been diagnosed and I'm losing all hope. Went online to find some positive stories and ended up reading about old men who say BPD wife's are awful and abusive and horrible mum's. Its hard to not feel like an awful person. My current relationship is on hold while I try seek help, but seeing that it can take 2-6 years to get better I just feel so defeated. Forever unloveable is how I feel right now. There this part of me that's just a nasty person to be around st times. I'll shower you in compliments and love and great sex and affection 23 hours of the day,but the moment my bpd kicks in that's all people focus on and it's killing me. I have no hope for a happy future right now. Just need reassurance. Hoping that an app designed for ladies won't be full of hurtful men who will should abuse at me,would love to hear a happy story. I know my journey will be hard but I wanna know that one day I'll be loveable:(