Sorry guys, this is my first boyfriend and the first guy I’ve ever done anything sexual with and I just need to rant a little and get some stuff off my chest. Not looking for advise or anything, just need to talk lol.

So I’m a virgin and my boyfriend and I are both Christians and want to wait for sex. We both get each other off through play, but last night was so intense that we got scary close to fully having sex! Ugh it was just good. I want to have sex but I want to wait. And every time I ask him what he wants he just tells me he wants me happy. Which is fine.

Anyways, last night was so good! The making out, how aggressive he was with me, the way he just touches me, everything! It was the first time I’ve ever been naked in front of a man too!

We came so close to full sex. Like scary close. Like vagina in penis but penis not in vagina (lol if that makes sense). I wanted to put it in but we both knew that we shouldn’t so we didn’t, but man! Was it HOT!

Ugh, okay. Thanks for letting me just talk about that lol, my family is religious and they wouldn’t approve of any of that so I just don’t really have anyone to talk to about that stuff