In my feelings 😒

Haate being all in my feelings...

So im seeing this guy casually for a few months now...

He knows I really like him (i don't actually even want to like him but I do)

Ive tried slowing things up a bit, even suggested we stop seeing each other altogether cause this was only ever supposed to be a casual thing...

He hasn't gone for it ssooo, we're still seeing each other, Ive now met family members of his (cousins that hes really close with) and some of his friends...

Don't want to end up falling for him.

Think i am gonna anyway, but reallllyyy don't want to...

Cuz

Despite him having me meet the cousins, the friends... He doesn't want a relationship, doesn't act like we're in one, doesn't answer my texts for sometimes days at a time...

I don't even think I wanna be in a relationship... Imean maybe I do but its like, me and him would make the *worst couple ever*

We had a big fall out recently and for like 2 weeks i was really upset by it, he calls like 3 days later acting like it didn't happen, no attempt to apologise when he knew he'd upset me...

Only reason were even speaking again is cuz I couldn't handle the idea of us continuing the fight still after 2 weeks it was getting to me too much...

I do really care about him but I don't wanna end up falling in love with him... What the hell do i even do here??