What do I do?

Any other mamas that suffer from, depression,anger and anxiety got extremely worse while pregnant? This is my second and with my first pregnancy nothing bad happened. It didn’t make any of my depression or anxiety worse and I didn’t have random mood swings...now I’m absolutely scared...I’m on a rollercoaster all day....I don’t believe in pharmaceutical medication I stopped taking that two years ago, I felt they were holding me back from being the best mother and fiancé I could be. I’m really scared they will put me on more medication while pregnant for concerns of “safety”. Weed isn’t necessarily working I have to smoke more then usual. What are some good strains I could try to help better my day to day life? And hopefully I won’t have to smoke as much of.