The memories keep popping up...

My husband cheated and I left. But at night the random memories pop in my head.

The first night he came home off a 11 month rotation in Korea. We held hands the entire night as we slept. It was one of the purist forms of love I had felt.

At night when I couldn’t sleep. He was a very heavy sleeper so I’d cuddle up next to him and listen to his heart beat until I got sleepy.

In the mornings before he’d leave for work he’d cover me up with all the blankets so I wouldn’t get lonely or cold.

He would play and “bite” my nose because he liked the angry face I would make at him afterwards.

It’s the stupid cute moments we had that I miss so much and that make me cry in my sleep. I’m so sad and after all the bad things he’s said and done. A part of me still wants to try and save this marriage so fucking bad. It wouldn’t work no matter how hard I try. I’ve lost hope and now all I can do is get the divorce started so I can move on and be happy