I feel used 😞💔

So there's this boy that I've been talking to for a at least 6 months, an the beginning, he was so sweet. He would text back relatively quickly and wed always talk. We're in college so We did hang out in person. Over time we, of course, started getting more sexual and but I never let him have sex cause I felt we were going too fast. He complained that my version of taking it slow was way too slow compared to his. He said it was because of our age difference and I brushed it off to the side. (I'm 18 he's 22)

However, when I started going to his house, he would really try and push to get sex from me. I always refused and he would get upset. He would even call me a bitch or make rude comments and mock me. Too add to that He never texts me as much. I always text him first and it would be hours without a reply. Unless it was something sexual he would respond pretty quickly. Then I gave in recently and we had sex. Ugh. I feel like a dumb ass for letting him treat me badly. I feel so dumb. Idk what to do. I hate myself. 💔😞

I feel so worthless. He literally only wanted me for sex and i only realized now.