This morning at work the back pain and cramps started to come on..well what do you know AF was right on time. AGAIN, for the 11th time while TTC. I texted my husband telling him about her imminent arrival, and he sympathized with me as he always does and says “I know it’s harder for you” “ it’s ok baby, we’ll persevere. We’ll have a baby” I am grateful for his optimism, but I really can not see a light at the end of the tunnel. Next month makes a year of trying, and we are already undergoing fertility testing but it is very hard for me to picture a day that my period will not show up. I’ve been losing more and more hope with each passing month, but this little surprise somewhat made my day a bit better.