I have been reading many of the posts in this group of amazing women, and my heart is sad for many of you. I feel like God is putting on my heart to share this with you.

I am blessed to have such wonderful friends and family who always encourage me when I'm down and love me no matter what. I do not believe that this is my cycle as I am having no signs of pregnancy and I am scheduled for surgery tomorrow. My doctor feels like I am okay to have surgery because I'm likely not pregnant this time around.

I was feeling down about another month that had passed with a negative test. I confided in one of my good friends about my feelings. I told her that another friend of mine said that I wasn't completely giving it to God. I started to feel guilty because she was right; I would give it to Him, but then "take it back". My friend who I was speaking with today really encouraged me with what she said. I somehow feel that God spoke through her because I felt such a sense of peace after she had said what was on her heart.

She told me that I needed to start praying a little differently. She told me that instead of constantly praying for a baby, I should pray for God's peace while I am waiting. She gave me the example of her mother, who went through a devastating divorce years ago that left her very lonely and wanting a husband. She told me that instead of praying for a new husband, she prayed for peace being alone. She prayed that if God had the right man for her, they would get together in His time, but until then, just to have peace.

She told me that if I pray for God's peace while I am without children, I am completely giving this over to God.

This made so much sense to me. I will never stop praying for a child because I know that my baby is coming. God spoke to me in my heart. That I am 100% certain of.

I am just going to pray for His peace while He picks my sweet little one who is meant to be with me.

I hope this will help someone who feels discouraged tonight. I'm sending love to all of you! God bless!