So I have severe depression, and I'm not saying it so people can feel bad or tell me everything will be better 'cause I can really care less BUT I had an ex, about 7 years ago, dated for 1 year and it was amazing, he always treated me like a princess and always dealt with my bratty self and he babied me too, which added to me being a brat lol things happen though and we ended up splitting up, shit had me fucked up, and I never really found a guy who was worth it like my ex so I've been single since, until one guy came along, we talked about 2 weeks and funny story we actually went to high school together, anyway since day one he would shower me with kisses, and called me a princess and also told me continuously "Fuck I'm hella mad we didn't date in high school" or "Oh my God you are literally everything I've been looking for in a girl" we would talk damn near 24/7 and sometimes he would bring up his ex to kinda compare me, to say I was better, and although I didn't really like that I didn't say anything because HIM 😫 so it didn't bother me afterwards.. and then all of a sudden, he stopped talking to me, I was really feeling him, he made me feel gooey with butterflies in my stomach type shit and gross, something I hadn't felt with anyone else other than with my ex 🙃 well point of this story is that guys suck !! But more-so I hate the fact that I let myself feel the way I did for a guy who just said nice things to me 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyways, the reason I said what I said in the beginning is because he fucked me up too, got me cutting 'cause my mind fucking with me and making me think I did some shit to make him stop talking to me even though "iT's nOt yOuR fAuLt eVeR doN't tHiNk tHaT" my mind still goes back to "I did something wrong" smh but whatever I guess

Not really writing this to for anything else but to just write down my feelings but if you have some fucked up shit to say from guys I wanna hear it 'cause I still wanna be mad 😂😂🤷🏻‍♀️