I guess I'm out. Nothing to look forward to anymore..

Well ladies, I guess this is the end for me.. i woke up around 4Am today with excruciating pain in my lower back and pelvic nauseous.. went to the hospital and they tried to find the heartbeats.. and they just told me to go home and let nature take its course.. I've never felt so empty before.. I feel like a failure.. depression really settle quickly.. to know that everything was fine and out of no where there is nothing I can do but blame myself.. hubby and I were so excited and ready for October to get here to meet them. We even picked out names.. his first baby then surprised to find out it was going to be twins..good luck to all you ladies..