I’ve suffered for a long time of not being able to fit in. I’ve been known as the “crazy person”, “anger issues”, or “can’t control emotions” at school. I’ve had strange habits for most of my life with eating habits, me fasting for days or my trouble sleeping. Both of these I’ve dealt with since the age of 5 (not severely). After researching, I believe I’ve come to a result of me having the mental disorder called cyclothymia. Cyclothymia causes mania and depressive phases that can result in difficult to deal with mood swings and anxiety. Along with eating disorders, unbalanced sleep, and lack of focus.

When I told my parents about this, they didn’t believe a word because “I am a teenager” and “I’m going through changes” and that “it will get better.” Well it’s not getting better. It hasn’t been since I started kindergarten. My emotions seem beyond what a normal teen would go through..,I’ve had thoughts, terrible ones of me starting over in a new life with just by dying. I want to be put on medication. But my mother says it will get rid of my creativity.

It’s hard for me to deal with anyone right now and I wish they would just turn around and face there backs away from me.