Two years ago yesterday I met a man I thought was the love of my life. I suffered through a manipulative, emotionally abuse relationship that was on and off. He could be amazing and sweet in person during sex. But over text he was a complete asshole who would threaten me all the time. Lately I hadn’t heard from him at all and yesterday, our anniversary, I snapped at him and blew up, because his response to an emotional text about my anxiety was “Strip for me”

He then went on to blame me and say “you knew we wouldn’t go anywhere because of my family” and said goodbye. A few weeks prior he had went on about how he couldn’t wait to marry me.

My heart hurts, but at the same time I’m happy, I’m so happy to be free, but my heart hurts because I still do love him.

I’m NEVER going back to him though