I suffer from anxiety and depression. 2 and a half years ago I was in a mentally emotionally and physically abusive relationship. I felt as if I was worth nothing. He made me believe my family hated me and didn’t want me. He made me believe he was the only one who cared. He was only physical when I was down like when I was sleeping I would be woken up to him hitting me because I was grinding my teeth. I wouldn’t eat I wouldn’t sleep much in fear that he would hit me again. I had a kidney stone that wouldn’t pass I couldn’t stand I was in so much pain and he called me a worthless waste of space because I didn’t cook his dinner. I have moved on to a more healthy relationship my husband is amazing. But my ex still has a hold on me. We don’t communicate but he mentally still has a hold on me. I can feel the anxiety and panic attacks coming back when something triggers a memory. I’m an emotional eater and this is taking its toll on me. All I want to do is sit around and eat eat eat since my husband and I have gotten married I’ve gained 40+ pounds. In 2 years. My husband is great and when I get in a depressed mood and start spilling things that had happened he’s very understanding when we are out in public and my panic attacks sit in. He is the light of my life that’s why I feel so bad about being depressed. I feel worthless useless and just down. I wish it would go away.