To or not to?

My two month old has an appt for his check up Monday. And I literally am DREADING IT! I am so so worried about the vaccines. Do I do them or no, if I do, which ones? Should I delay them? So many questions! I have ALWAYS been pro vax. As a nurse, I really understand the benefits of them... when they go right. But my gut is just screaming at me the last few days. And then I look at my sweet sweet baby, and I just want to cry! I don’t want to hurt my baby by not getting him the vaccines. But what if he’s one of the 1 in (whatever number) affected by a vaccine?! I just would live with the guilt forever but more importantly, my son would live with the side effects 😭 I hate this decision. I have been researching now for a couple days and I’m just still torn... Any insight please would be appreciated. Also, this is not a post I will accept any arguing on so please be appropriate with your comments.