I first had a miscarriage in March 2018 due to a blighted ovum.

In October 2018 I lost my little girl at 14 weeks due to a partial mole. What’s CRAZY is her chromosomal count was normal, it’s absolutely rare. I suffered a lot in my second pregnancy, I was very sick, and I blame myself for not picking up something was wrong, I thought it was just HG. I spent a week in hospital trying to deliver her, because in Dubai, they lack the medication to bring on Labour in early pregnancy (abortion is illegal here) so 1 week in hospital of pure torture from them to try and dilate me. (They even put a catheter up my uterus to try start labour) Eventually they got me open and rushed me into a DNC as my white blood cells began to spike.

After the aftermath, they make sure your HCG drops to normal, as not only the baby gives it off but so does this growth! If it doesn’t, you have to go for chemo. Luckily it dropped beautiful, the past 3 months I’ve had a 0 HCG report.

On the 27th of Jan 2019 I felt off, I went for HCG bloods again and they came back normal. Strange. My period was due in 1 week.

4th February 2019 came and went, no Aunt Flo? This thing is back!!!! I panic and rush to the doctor. She calms me and tells me I’m pregnant?? Um... crap. I’m automatically put into high risk pregnancy, this partial mole can reoccur.

I’ve been closely monitored since week 4 with bloods, ensuring HCG is increasing at a normal rate, which it has. Today is my first scan and I’m PETRIFIED of what we going to see. The last time I had a scan my little girls heart wasn’t beating.

Please pray for me today as I make my way to the doctors office today. Please pray this little rainbow is healthy. Please God. Please