I’m so annoyed 😒 rant. I just needed to let this out

I’m 17 and my parents don’t let me have a normal relationship! I want to go on dates and have them come over (while parents are home idc) but no I can’t. I always have to sneak around with boys. and the boys I do sneak around with aren’t boyfriends they’re just little flings that I have since I can’t have a serious boyfriend, so I don’t feel so lonely. It makes me really sad cause I get extremely lonely and everyone has normal teen relationship for my age. There’s been many boys that have tried to be serious with me but I just brush them off cause I know our relationship is gonna consist of sneaking around and I’m tired of that !