My confidence hasn’t been this low since I was like 15. I’m 21 now and I just feel so bad about myself.

There’s nothing particularly wrong with me I feel like but I think that I’ve grown so used to being the ugly friend and being bullied and picked on that when I finally grew out of being ugly the insecurities just stuck.

I used to be 40 lbs heavier and unhappy so yeah I was pretty ugly. But the bullying started when I was in kindergarten and didn’t really end until I turned 18-19 when I ditched my friends that still would make me feel fat even when the weight was gone.

And I know this is so shallow but like I can understand the fact that I am no longer that young insecure girl and that I’m pretty now. But I just don’t believe it if that makes sense :/ how do I believe it? I tell myself the positive things every day but I just feel like I’m lying to myself