So ... I feel like there's going to be negative responses, but it's been something thats been bothering me so here I go.

Im 35. Married. Husband and I have been ttc for about a year now.

I'm getting the feeling that I don't like sex. Maybe its because of the stress that comes with ttc for so long with no success. It's like a chore to me now. I could honeslty go weeks without it and be just fine. We bd during my fertile window, and honestly that's all I really..want. And "want" isnt even the right word. It's like I have to tell myself that we have to do this if I ever hope to be pregnant.

And it's not that I'm not attracted to my husband. He's great and I love him, but I've never been a physical person. I dont even like to kiss, specifically wet sloppy tongue in mouth kisses. Having someone's tongue and saliva in my mouth has always grossed me out. Even seeing French kissing on tv or whatever makes me cringe. I told him early on in our dating days that tongue kissing isn't my thing, and he's been great since then.

But sex is... ugh. If I didnt have to do it, I wouldn't, or it would happen maybe once or twice a month.