I have had a hard time with believing in God. Not because I don’t want to, but simply because I am so scared of death that the thought of there possibly not being a God scares me too. My fear just makes it so hard to believe. I know that’s confusing, but it’s how it is for me.

I feel like I can’t deny it now though. I had a dream about my grandma the other night coming to visit me. My grandma was my very best friend. She passed away in 2016. She just hugged me in the dream and I cried and cried.

Yesterday a miracle happened. I’ve had health issues which have turned into medical bills. I was going to have to use most of mine and my husbands tax returns to pay them off. I went to the doctor again yesterday and my insurance covered the entire thing and all of my medication except $8.00. Then I called to get the balance of all of my bills including a $600 one and a $400 one only to find out that all of my bills are at a $0 balance except for one $25 bill!! I paid that immediately and I now have no bills to pay! I am so shocked!! Then I had to barrow $177 from my grandpa to buy groceries and after I got home from grocery shopping I got the mail and had a check from my old work that I had to quit for medical reasons that was exactly $177!! I was able to pay my grandpa right back!! How crazy is that?! My grandpa wouldn’t take the money back so we got extra groceries! I also got told that my manager is going to try to hire me on full time!!

How do you deny all of that?!? I definitely need to start reading the scriptures again and attending church again. I hope you all are showered in blessings like I have been!