In just the two year husband did something that making me can't trust him. He return from Iraq after a year of being apart so I know it was duty to satisfy his need. Sadly, when we were unite I was on my period until mid week Nov 2017.

His birthday is first week of November. I was seeing my period still so I won't in the mood for sex. He decide he wanted peace so I give him just that but later he said he is going by his coworker to play game. Lies!

He end up at a strip club! Only reason I find out is because of the bank statement. I asked what the place was even those I researched it and he lie about a friend working there. I cried that night. I felt bad cause I did suggested that he go out just for one dance since I won't in the mood to do nothing but it the total he spend $1158 in two night! He told me when I say to enjoy 1 damn dance that he is marry and don't cheat. I said fine, I'll let you relax but to go behind my back twice and did it was......I can't even think of reasonable word to describe how I felt. I did felt guilty cause it was my fault 😔 so after my period ended i decided to have sex. I felt like I fail as a wife.

Period ain't my strongest talk to other. My mom was never there to tell me about it. She was alive but she won't there for me when I was growing up.

I admire my husband cause when I was in a situation that involved rape and miscarrige he was there for. Even when I had my first child by another guy that didn't wanted my daughter. He was there for us. He married me before my daughter turn 1 year old. But now I think otherwise.

On good Friday last year 2018, he wanted to have sex but my period again was in the way. I had recently started the Depo shot so my period were irregular. He told me he going out for a drink. He ended up again at a different club and lie about it. The only reason I find out cause I called the club he said he was going to. Their deny everything he said they were doing that day.

Now this week, I walk into his bathroom to ask him something then I notice the smell of sex. I ask him numerous time "why do you smell like sex?" Why do you smell like sex? He didn't answer the first 4 time I asked. Then he said he was jerking off. I ask him for phone cause now I'm like, is he doing something behind me back again?????

Checking his phone ain't really my thing. He have the finger point and pattern password on his phone. His reason because his coworker in the army like checking his phone. There had an event so he was in charge of somebody. He told me before he get home that you were there to just show up not like it was a regular work day but in the bathroom he lie and say he can't leave.

Skipping to yesterday, I told him to pick up an item from somebody and he was gone for 1hour. His respond, "don't worry." I asked a lot and receive no answer. Before I went out his room, I said"whomever you fucking good luck. Your not gonna be sexual with me for a long time!"

The depo shot does stop my period and also kill my sex drive but I always try to please him. He wanted sex couple days ago but I was still having an irregular period. Now that it's ended I strongly don't think he would be enjoying my vagina anytime soon. Am I wrong? Can this cause more problem?