Y’all I need advice, and I apologize in advance. My husband previously divorced, married me and we have full custody of his two, plus mine from a previous thing, and expecting our first together in September. My hormones are everywhere. Tomorrow is both stepdaughters’ birthday. 5 years apart. Turning 9 and 4.

We tuck Maddie (8) in and shut the door, then we hear banging thinking Aubrey or Jamie got up. Wrong so I go back into check on Maddie and she’s sitting up crying throwing stuff. She said she just missed everyone. I thought it was about my family leaving after their party, because my bio cries when nana and papa leave. Well My step talked to amber (bio mom) tonight and it’s the second time amber told her she’s going on Fourth of July to Hawaii. Well Maddie runs the phone out to us saying see I told you so, I’m going to Hawaii on Fourth of July. And mike (husband) goes first I’ve heard and so he straight up asked his ex and she goes what we’re shooting fireworks on the Fourth of July and he goes okay well are you getting them this summer or no and she goes I’m trying to. Well he’s in there trying to calm her down and he told her if we have the money well help make sure she goes this summer. I immediately just told her how much I love her and her mom would want her to be happy on her birthday and say goodnight a second time and walk out before I lost it. This woman left her kids and marriage while he was still deployed and told them they were going to spend this past summer with her in Hawaii. Well that didn’t happen, and she came to Georgia and picked them up and stayed with her dad for a whole ten days right before school started back. She only sees them once a year.

Um how tf are we going to have money for Hawaii for two of them when we’re buying a house end of May, our lease is up beginning of June and having a baby and buying all baby things? In my opinion that’s their mom’s fucking job and she failed last year. Always filling their heads with broken promises. Now I’m in a rut again. I know she misses her mom. Because she was there for her until she was six before she ran off, little sister was only 18 months and mike feels responsible because he doesn’t want to see his daughter down but it’s her fucking responsibility. She won’t even let us claim both kids on taxes when she does nothing with them, so she has money. If only she put her focus on the right subject!!

Rant over!