I just got my period today! It’s late by 2 days so I took a test this morning and it was negative. I was praying sooo hard that I wouldn’t get my period and it was maybe still too early to tell! But nope! Another devastating, disappointing, heart wrenching month! I am so over this!!! It’s been a year of trying! It’s not even fun. It’s a chore for both of us already and it just consumes my mind!!!! I just want some good news already!!! 😩 Last month I went to a naturopath and I was told that I have a very thin uterine wall and a B12 deficiency so I’m taking vitamins to bring those back to normal. I was also prescribed progesterone to help keep my levels high... the dr saw and literally pinpointed my ovulation and we had sex every time she said we should and yet I still got my period!! Previously we would have sex every other day for the entire month to ensure that we would get pregnant and NOTHING! Literally every woman I know is announcing their pregnancies and it’s killing me!! I feel so down and out I just want to give up!! A co-worker of mine and I started to try at the same time and they got pregnant right away. I have now witnessed their entire pregnancy and also get to hear all about their new baby girl. It’s like a knife to the heart. I can’t even smile for them anymore. Also, had a miscarriage in October and a chemical pregnancy in December. It’s like this cruel joke my body is playing on me.

I don’t know what to do anymore and I want to give up because I’m so exhausted but I don’t at the same time because I want another baby sooooo badly!!!!!!! I wish it was as easy as going to the grocery store and just purchasing a instant pregnancy! I fucking hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭