I'm not really looking for advice, I just need somewhere safe to vent what's going on for me.

It's almost 4:30am and I need to get up in 2 hours.

I work almost 60 hour weeks and do the cooking, cleaning, shopping and misc errands. I try to keep up on house chores during my lunch breaks because I work a couple miles from my house.

Lately I've been exhausted and overwhelmed with what needs to be done and with errands I've had to run on my lunches the last few weeks I fell behind on house chores

My husband is either in school or work the same amount of hours I work so we're both really busy.

I'm 21 weeks along and I'm getting really underwhelmed with him.

Tonight I was in pain because we helped move a whole bunch of canned goods from a friend's basement in the morning so by the time we left there my lower back and legs were aching. Then I had to go to my cleaning job for a couple hours, spent some time buying some maternity clothes I desperately needed and ran an errand.

Then I got home and had to clean the kitchen and make our dinner for the week before I could go lay down. I was in so much pain when I was in the kitchen that I was crying.

My husband stayed in the bedroom playing a stupid game on his phone.

He had put away some of the canned goods our friend had given us and did a load of laundry but then spent the rest of the day in bed while I was out and in the kitchen.

He is a full time student and works too so his days are just as long as mine, but god forbid I ask for help at home.

Lately he's started calling me names "as jokes" and I've tried politely saying and "joking back" by saying things like "say nice things" & "that's rude, don't be rude". We're probably going to have a fight in the morning when I drive him to school because I'm done listening to it. We've had the discussion before because he likes to use insults like "your dumb/ stupid/ moron" and I've always had a hard time feeling like I'm smart or good enough as it is (thank you mom, I don't miss you) and he knows that but also, why would you talk like that to someone you say you love anyway? I shouldn't have to remind him to not be a hurtful asshole.

Tonight we woke up at 3 because it was too hot and I asked why it was so bright. He got up and said "because you're a moron" and shut the blinds properly.

He was the one who shut them last night. I was in the goddamn kitchen all evening.

I can't go back to sleep because I'm so upset with how I'm being treated. My body hurts, I have more to do than I have time for and now my husband is being an ass to me.

I've asked for help around the house and every little thing he has helped with it's like he just sacrificed so much to do it, and then he makes sure to ask that I get caught up on everything else.

On top of everything I probably don't go a single hour when we are together without hearing minor requests from him like asking me to get up and get water/his charger/food, etc for him. But if I ask for anything he usually has some lame excuse for why he can't and I just get up because it'll be faster than arguing with him.

I don't want special treatment because I'm pregnant. I'm not like that, I just want equal and decent treatment because I deserve it and I'm his wife.

Not to mention I don't want this to be the example my daughter learns from and something needs to change.

I don't feel very loved and I do feel very alone.