Frustrated and embarrassed. So I will say that this is my first time not being induced in 12 years but somehow I still feel I should be a pro at this by now, or at least I feel that's what the doctors and nurses must be thinking.😞

I woke up at 415 am with a gush of fluid that completely soaked my underwear. I smelled it and didn't smell like pee. Hubby and I were intimate last night so *maybe* something else? It has never gushed out like that before though (sorry if TMI). Anyway, I have short labors and we live 45 minutes away from the hospital so I call L&D and they advise me to come in. As we are driving, I'm not feeling anymore gushes or anything really (got a bad feeling it was a false alarm). When we get there my fears are confirmed. They check for fluid (negative) but then monitor my contractions which are 4-5 minutes apart (this gave me some hope - maybe they'll keep me or help things along). They have me walk around for an hour and check for progress. Nothing. Anyway, I am 39 weeks today and at home now and just feeling really annoyed and tired. I wanted my baby today and am so anxious to be done. Not to mention the additional bill we will now get because apparently I wet myself🤦😭

Still having some decent contractions but nothing that will get the job done. I hope they give me an induction date at my 40 week appt Friday! I need an end in sight.