NIPT/NT scan anxiety

Kerry • Kerry (blessed boy mama, lucky wife, badass chick) 🌈🌈 Baby Bean due 9/9/19

I had my blood drawn this past Friday for the NIPT & I go in for my NT scan this Wednesday (2 days) & I just can’t stop worrying what if something is wrong. I have absolutely no reason to feel this way. We saw & heard a heathy HB at 8 weeks, I still have some symptoms (12w, 2d), & my belly has popped. Maybe it’s because my last 2 pregnancies ended in MMC (literally back to back) at 8 weeks & maybe I’m still in denial that this baby will be in my arms in a few months. My husband, myself & my 3 year old son want this baby so bad. I’m not even worried about Down Syndrome (my beautiful amazing little sister has DS), I’m more concerned with a terminal illness. I can’t shake it. I keep busy to keep it off my mind, but it creeps back in a few times a day. Like, what if I go in there on Wed & my little bean isn’t growing as it should? I would be so devastated. Any positive vibes would be greatly appreciated! (I’m 37, btw).