so have tried my hardest to put "trying" out of my head and had done really well for ages until tonight after being 1 day late then AF showed her ugly face! and have not been upset for a long time until now, just fed up of the disappointment all the time, just feel like I am just too bad or maybe I am just to old and should give up, I am so blessed to have one but have always been more devastated since my miscarriage almost 3 years ago, am mildly happy for all the people I know that are having babies maybe even slightly jealous but not in a malicious why, am I the only one who feels this way?