Hi guys, usually i wouldn’t put myself out there like this, but I really don’t know what to do. I know there are a lot of good people on here so I hope for the best.

I didn’t really know what group to post this on but I just chose this one and I will try and explain my situation the shortest way.

I’m 15 and I smoke weed a lot. I know i’m really young and I know what it can do to my body. I know weed is a very popular drug that can be good for you but can be abused. I am educated and I do good in school. All of my friends smoke with me but we do it for fun. I used to vape but I stopped because it was so useless. But weed is different, it makes me a better person. I have anxiety and used to have depression so it helped me a lot. I started when I was 14 and I used to do it a lot more, like doing it at school and when I wake up and when I go to bed. I still do it but only after school with friends or weekends. I really wish I never started because even though I’m a fun person when I’m high and I’m a lot sociable, it makes me sad and I lost a lot of friends. I love my friend group, all of them smoke but it doesn’t make them bad people. They are such supporting and kind friends so no, I’m not going to stop being friends with them. However i’m the only one who wants to stop. I get it, it’s really fun, but it’s affecting my life more than I thought. I didn’t smoke for a week and I had the absolute worst nightmares. It was crazy, like my nightmares were about me getting high and doing crazy shit, I don’t even know how to explain. I had to smoke when I woke up because I just couldn’t handle it. I really don’t know what to do, it’s not like I can tell my parents abt it since they will kill me, and I really don’t know what to do at this point.