So very long story...my sister got married in the late fall of 2017. A friend of ours was there. We have been friends since kindergarten and our families have been friends since long before that. Anyway it had been a while since we saw each other until the wedding. Friends said he watched me all night but I never noticed. We’ve always been flirty friends but never crossed the friends line. We ended up deciding to meet up for coffee a couple days later. He lived a few hours away but was planning on moving back. Our coffee meet up lasted six hours and we just sat and talked about everything.

Then in January 2018 he moved back. We were hanging out every weekend. Sometimes just us, sometimes other friends. We’d do dinner and take turns paying but things felt different...we finally had a talk close to summer time and came to the conclusion that we wanted to date but not be in a relationship. But I didn’t want friends with benefits without a relationship...I also told him that I wasn’t going to beg for a relationship from him and if another man asked me out that I would be interested in then I would go. He agreed because he didn’t want me to wait for him to decide. We kissed and made out a lot after this discussion.

In late summer he ended up getting a job and moved. He would come visit but got upset when he asked what I did the day before and I told him I went on a date. He ended up not talking to me for a while and got in a relationship a well later.

We stayed friends but were respectful of the relationship he had. They then broke up about a month ago and I’m sort of dating someone but not officially. He came back to visit me as a surprise and mentioned us and how he moved away like he regretted us not being together. We then joked about getting married. He told me to just tell him when I’m ready to do it and where I want to go on the honeymoon...so confused on what he really wants... I don’t want to ruin things with my new man but I can’t help but wonder what of...🤷🏻‍♀️ 🧐